2008 and 2009 had been one of the worst years of my life, if not the worst.

The truth is: I am not looking forward to anything at all as of the moment.

I remember a girl named Anna, I think I know too many Anna's in my life. I wonder why there are people who have a lot in their lives but they can not seem to be contented with what they have that they invent the sordid details of their lives.

These days I wish I am plain boring. These days I wish my only problem involves living from paycheck to paycheck and the ruins of my heart. I feel like I have too much on our plate that it is mundane and unlivable. I sleep longer at nights. I smoke more. I have ran away from several people. I did not go to work today because I have to attend to some problems.

Sometimes I think I need some help, but maybe that was just me being too maarte.

If only last.fm allows for retrieving of old data I would have erased that as well. My lack of a spine has only caused me to temporarily delete my twitter and facebook (again).